living the doog life

A Final Rant, and the Closure

2006-03-10T19:06:00.000+08:00

before i play coroner and declare the blog dead, allow me one final post. a bitter ranting about my current situation now. yes, no sentence caps, whilst retaining the formality. just that sometimes i feel bitter, and sometimes is now.

let us rewind and revisit a not so distant past.

just over 75 days ago, i made a promise to myself and my friends around me. i had lost my councillorship - essentially 1/3 of my school life, more if you include my social and spiritual lessons - to my landing up in 3Q. well, being emotional to the point of instability, i made a rash promise. to an extent, as i look back on it now, i can even call it ridiculous.

but whatever it was, the promise had been made. i worked hard and diligently. through the term it became clearer that i was making quantum leaps forward in my class, though i acknowledge it is nothing compared to the rest of the level. i sowed the seeds, and i reaped the harvest, and now i sit on a comfortable MSG of 2.00, topping the class in 3 subjects, two of them with fellow sitch-mate tong hang.

i made an appointment with ms koe, scheduled today. filled up with a pleasant nerve, even excitement. how ridiculous. when she finally returned to a cubicle after a one hour wait, she informed us that she couldn't make a decision at that time, because she hadn't discussed the situation with mr hon, who is currently in malaysia. apparently, they weren't prepared for the possibility that students would show such promise that they can be given a chance back in their own consortium...do they doubt us?

but i shall not digress further. so, with that, she pronounces the death sentence, or at least, an indefinitely extended period of imprisonment. by the time mr hon returns, probably tuesday or wednesday, ms koe would have to make an appointment with mr hon, by that time friday or saturday. with the full assumption that they come to a decision on that day itself, they have a couple of days left to complete the tedious administrative matters. with that, i have a nagging suspicion that they are going to give a convenient excuse to keep us in 3Q, at least until the end of term 2.

and so the tale ends...or maybe, i'm being too pessimistic today. slightly unsure of how to deal with the new developments, i paid a visit to two teachers i've sorely disappointed for long - mrs giam and mr tan. i explained the sitch to them, and unable to find words to express my apologies and disappointments, and perhaps being too embarrassed to admit my fears and uncertainties, i stated my mere hunches and whims to them, with sufficient details to back them up.

today has passed. the aftermath? a detachment from the main run of things, trying hard to fit back in and to procure a decent facade of general well-being while sinking myself into a maelstrom of emotions. training has helped me put my mind off things for a while, but just as majority of things flow, it strikes back with triple the vengeance. i haven't been myself for a few hours. i am moody, depressed, impulsive, and bitter.

even with my explanations, i find it hard - bordering on the impossible - to explain to my friends whom i had made the boldest of promises to. guilt, perhaps, will forever remain something that cannot be remedied. somehow i feel that something inadvertently went wrong that could have had the slightest possibility of being controlled, but i failed to exert a stranglehold on it. even now i search through my mind for something that i could've done to twist the chances in my favour.

and the conclusion? i remember very clearly. i promised to be back in 70 days, no more. how foolish of me. i had an inkling of my chances and prospects, but i pushed them to the back of the continuous chatter of my mind in false hope that i'd be back. and with the current circumstances, which might even be called mini-politics, my chances are probably yanked beyond my pitiful grasp.

some perceive my results as an unprecedented success. some might even be envious at my achievements. in reality, i don't think there's anything to go wild and celebrate about. so what if i get an MSG of 2.00, if i don't return to ortus? i'm already slugging through the exact same syllabus as the other ortus people, and the rest of the cohort. on my result slip, the MSG of 2.00 stands like a mocking jester as it positions itself tantalizingly out of my reach.

and now, presenting the autopsy. the patient had been restrained by the massive poisoning of over-optimism, compounded by the blunt trauma of fate. the diagnosis? another long wait, another grueling term of depression and bitterness. once again, presenting to you the perennial underachiever, promising so much but delivering so little.

to end off, the promised execution begins. adios.

Rash Promise

2006-03-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

Urgh. The more I think about it, the more angst, guilt and despair is wrecking my brains as I continue to worry whether I will make it back to Ortus next term. I really want to slash my chest and rip my lungs out because I made such a rash promise whilst I was feeling emotional, (perhaps marring my judgment,) promising everyone that I'd be back by term 2. There's a slight glimmer of hope, though, because Tong Hang and I went to see Mr. Chew today and he said he'll do what he can do about it. No promises, though...

I've been down with the flu for one whole week and I haven't trained/exercised in the meantime. I'm accumulating fats, losing physical fitness and forgetting techniques. Anyone has any foolproof methods to buff up your immune system? I seriously need that, been sick twice this year already. And I think I've been taking running nose medicine for so long I've already developed immunity against the drowsiness effect. Always used to knock me out in 20 minutes but now I can even work after taking it.

Nothing much once more, ciao...

Johari's Personality Mapping Window

2006-03-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

I haven't been here for long, but neither have the usual visitors, it seems...

MSG is currently 1.71 but the news is I must complete my ACE or at least get a substantial amount of it before I can return to my consortium, so I've given up hopes of returning this term. Next term would be an ideal target because all subjects should by then hit 10 points, and I can reason that it would be unfair to hold us back another term since PW Semi-Finals are held in Term 3. So the 70 days thing was pretty ambitious, but there's still hope. Only wishful thinking...

http://kevan.org/johari?view=TheDoog
And like everyone else, I've did the Johari thing. It seems that bold is my dominant trait. It's both cool and bemusing to see how differently people respond or select your 6 primary attributes. Then you realize how different you act in front of different people. Incredibly, really.

No other updates. Ta.

Reminiscence

2006-02-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Today I went to watch the investiture. The theme for this year's Council is Velocity, which basically means speed with direction. Hm, must be that Physics worksheet I was constructing for ACE last night. I bet Yuan Chang came up with this theme because he keeps sprinting everyday and calculating his velocity, blah blah blah. Oh well, it's a good, sensible theme anyway. With magnitude and direction...

Sigh what I regret today was not saying the council pledge. The J1/2 batch all stood up and said the pledge, and I didn't.

Guilty.

Ahhh for those who still regard me as an emotional cretin, well, during the song (Dare to Dream) I was almost moved to tears after having gone through reminiscence during the whole of investiture, and well, once everyone left, I cried again. I should be back in less than 3 weeks though, and there's plenty of stuff to look forward to, despite the fact that I have to study harder, but nothing good ever came without sacrifice.

I'm going to reprimand Yuan Chang tomorrow for not keeping to his promises. Part of the investiture was about ohana, which meant family, and family, which meant no one's left behind (from Lilo & Stitch). Thing is, everyone (except me) left Yao Hui behind at the bag room, flirting away 2 hours while a lonely guy's inside the room, with no girls to flirt with. Not saying I'm a girl, but I stayed back in the room and accompanied him for the most part afte the investiture. Guess I'm THE true councillor.

Oh, and today was the first time I ever sat for something with a good GOH. Youth Forum and SLC ones caused me to fall asleep, but this Mr Calvin Cheng guy rocks. He lived and breathed in secondary school life for council. Hm, that sounds like me. Couple more worthwhile quotes -

"If there was RI blood to be drank that day, we would've done it."
"Hwa Chong is the best, but for the rest, the best is yet to be."

Ortus Council General Elections

2006-02-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

Kk I think it may be time to say bye to 3Q and say hi to Ortus and 3L because amazingly, my MSG has held at 1.8 after getting back my 30/35 Physics test paper. But I should be cautious, because I expect they'll give some excuse like, 'One term is hardly enough to judge you.', and all the crap. Putting those fears aside, I reckon I'll be back soon. LeeKS, Rosalind Lee, Nancy Tay and Steven Su all have a positive impression of me now. Mr Lim and Hon remain fairly neutral.

Ortus council general elections are over and it's
1) Yao Hui
2) Jing Bo
3) Jia Yun
4) Jun Hao
5) Kai Jian
6) Dominic
7) Dun Yang
8) Charles
9) Lian Seng
10) Tse An

Yao Hui, Jing Bo, Jun Hao, Kai Jian and Jia Yun are all solid, dependable choices. Tse An, Charles and Dun Yang are only kind-of good. Lian Seng is the popular character we need a Dominic is sort of a wild card that I don't really approve of, but meh, I can't do anything now that it's settled. Just hope they'll do good. Oh, and I'm feeling like sitting in for investiture on Wednesday. Anyone wants to come with me?

Sighhh I've been tracking the news on the 11pm thingy. Oh well, it's very lame, really, but that's just another thing we have to live with. Although I would be extremely pissed if I'm just hanging out after a late movie with my friends and all of a sudden this police officer walks over and bombards an innocent group of teenagers about what you're doing. Or maybe, next time, I'll just drag an 18 year old senior along with me or something. I mean, Singaporean kids need to be resourceful to survive the global competition, so let's be resourceful starting from now and drag seniors along with us next time.

And Pink Man sat next to me on the 156 bus like omg. And I had a wicked thought about spontaneously (ha ha) jumping up and yelling for the all the passengers to hear, "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU TOUCH ME FOR?" and then you can clobber him! Sad to say that I don't want to be the one to test it out, though.

Counterstrike is such a devil.

Newton's Third Law

2006-02-18T21:53:00.000+08:00

Our flurry of tests is FINALLY over with only one A-maths test next week and one more chinese test the week after, which is quite insignificant. Quite slack, but otherwise I'm bogged down once again with project work, maths statistic poster and...I'm not sure, an increased volume of homework that teachers might give, using the absence of tests as an excuse.

Today was quite a relaxing and fruitful day. I trust Qi Han won't disclose a portion of it. Science tuition was cool today. We did Newton's 2nd law. Then Mr Chua asked us what the third law was.

Mr Chua: Anyone can tell me what Newton's 3rd law is?
Me: Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.
*Mr Chua walks up to me, and punches me in the shoulder, HARD. Everyone laughs.*
Mr Chua: I applied 10N of force on his arm. His arm applied 10N of force on my fist.

*Mr Chua pauses for a while, looks around, and punches again. Everyone laughs again.*
Mr Chua: This time I applied 20N of force on his arm.
*Amused, I proceeded to , er, apply 5N of force on his arm.*
Me: Now I apply 5N of force on your arm!

God, he's strong for such a frail figure.

Next went with BX to library for pw meeting. It was untypically short and sweet where we managed to churn out a very basic methodology and timeline which seems much more realistic although I'm dreading the part where we have to create an interactive website because, hell, none of us have any sort of computer expertise. Oh well, I'd better start sourcing for experts like Jevon to help me. For the rest BX came over to my house and we gayed (metaphorically), did physics and maths, gayed, played computer, and gayed some more.

During the night I just took my sister's laptop, put it next to me, sat at the piano, and played Clocks by Coldplay and Bad Day by Daniel Powter. Spent a solid one hour doing that and it felt good. And that includes churning out the left hand too.

Potential Leaders

2006-02-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day was romantic for me because I spent 1 hour playing the Beautiful Game!

Cross country was alright, I guess. I ran quite leisurely during the competitive run and I think I've lost much of my longer distance stamina, though medium distances would still be no problem (power makes up for endurance). Went to my house later with YH and ZH, the latter having fallen down during the route and getting cuts on his knee and on his eyebrow. That was some incredibly nasty pus. Did crap for about an hour.

Sighhh I seriously wish our teachers would speed up in teaching and I wouldn't mind if our tests got harder because right now, they're ridiculously easy. Believe that my MSG now is 1.833? But we're lagging behind other classes incredibly. While 3L has already gone past logarithms; we're still doing surds. And we're still stuck way behind with acids, bases and salts for Chemistry. Once I go back to 3L, I'll expect to lag backwards to 3.??.

Sabbaticals are coming up, and Bing Xiang landed in Leadership Theory and Practice, which is good. I always secretly thought that Bing Xiang would be a good leader (the interpersonal sort) but he's too busy Mapling or playing court. So would Jun Lin. It's good to see that someone actually keeps track of those people and do something. And I always had a facsination with people who actually have massive potential to become leaders but don't actually become one.

'ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Sometimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped. '
http://www.typelogic.com/enfp.html

I thought I was weird, but there you go. Sometimes I think I have a minor behavorial disorder (maybe I'll uncover tons more) but there's an explanation for it.

Some fears are killing me. Some already know why.

<3-less n00gs

2006-02-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

I was thinking at school today and came up with the conclusion that we're just a bunch of <3-less n00gs. =/

School was cool today, physics and english tests kind off threw me off my feet although I can expect to do fairly well for both of them. Other periods flew by in a daze of sleepiness. Court was cool today because I played fairly solidly compared to my usual stuttering performance with about half a dozen blocks on shots on goal. Oh and my calf muscle 'pull' is only a false alarm which I'm extremely grateful for. I'll be going for x-country tomorrow.

And it's so disappointing that in the end no one's coming over. =/

Slow Pace

2006-02-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

I don't have plans for Valentines' Day. If anyone's interested in knowing, you can ask me personally or something but I probably won't tell you. To those two who I've told, you'd better keep your bloody mouths shut or you'll regret you ever lived. I still can't believe I confided in the 2nd person last night. Insanity.

Anyway, away from that. YH, Jevon and DAJH are confirmed coming over to my house to sleepover tomorrow night because we're all love-less =/. We'll probably mug a couple of hours (from the legendary mugger class, 3I!) after that we'll probably rape each other upside down (take that metaphorically, not literally), go to sleep for x-country, wake up, go for x-country, go back to my house and gay each other upside down again. Isn't too bad of a plan.

LeeKS caught another 4 people for copying today (Cao Yue, Jhun Boon, Brendon and Zhen Yu) and he gave them a choice of punishment: the whole class copies homework 4 times, or they themselves copy their homework 22 times. Of course they chose the former, the latter would receive incredible despising from the others and I'd probably slug all of them and rip their guts out. But no hard feelings.

Life in school's good, but the pace of the class is incredibly slow, and I wish it'd be faster. We just started logarithms and 3L just finished them. And that doesn't even include mugger 3I. Stuff has been going on well and I'm quite confident of scoring in tomorrow's English and Physics tests, probably because my expository got 22/30, and I've already had ample preparation for Physics. But I do have to stop my bad habit of leaving my files/textbooks under the table the day before the test, or I'll be GGed soon. Chemistry test was fairly easy.

I think I'll continue piano without a teacher; I've picked up 2 new Grade 5 exam pieces in the past couple of weeks, so I'll try to find some way to get the past few years' Grade 5 exam pieces and once I think I'm ready, I'll move on to Grade 6. Piano just seems so much more pleasurable without a teacher. I remember hating piano back in primary...three, or something.

I'll be a bit different here and post a bit of religious stuff here so any non-Christians, you will forgive me or stop reading here. Sighhh I've to do a little bit of thinking after yesterday's message of putting God at the forefront of your life before all else. I can't decide. Friends seem of the utmost importance to me and...asking that is quite a big task. I don't think I'm ready for full-blown commitment just yet.

Violent Impulse

2006-02-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

A WEEKEND A DAY KEEPS SCHOOL AWAY!

Urghhh I really need to control my anger at people who complain but never realize how much worse the guy next to him is doing.

I'm thinking of joining soccer as a 2nd EP3, but it will drastically worsen my schedule even further and I think I might die under the physical strain and the time constraints. Not to mention once I get back to consortium, the workload will probably tripled and I'll be gunning for councilorship again. Considering I got 3.67 last year with just studies, track & field and council, I'll probably fall to about 5.00 or something.

Let's assume I join as a defender. Goalkeeping no longer interests me, my ball control's too poor to be a striker and the midfielder is experiencing constipation with like 15 good players from my level. Anyway, self-assessment coming up, please forgive any narcissism.

I think I'm very good technically and physically - I can usually get the ball from a striker who's coming in at full speed, and from strikers whose legs are dancing everywhere without actually touching them or getting fooled by their incessant amateur play. Physically, my long legs naturally help. My speed is good to track runs and follow strikers while my stamina will let me go the distance. Furthermore, if I'm really angry, I can always hack a striker down violently at my own leisure.

Bad things. I don't fully utilize as I don't really like to head a ball - I only do so when I have to man mark a player who's very tall and can jump incredibly high during defensive set pieces. I also have to get working on my ball control which is very poor although I have embarked on a couple of successful runs at defenders lately. So far, though, my adventurous instinct has been held under control which is fortunate, because I'm sweeper.

I'll be facing competition from Minjian (Brilliant but inconsistent), Iype (Composed but unfit), Gino and Luke (haven't seen them play, but I heard about their magnificence in positioning and reading the game), and Wilson (versatile but without specialty).

Sighhh training was CRAZY. We had to run (nearly sprint) 300m and walk 100m, 3 repitions, 2 sets of that. And I'm the second slowest Sec 3/4 sprinter/jumper, and I tried to pace myself with Timothy/Jun Lin/Yikai because it would be the only way I improved. Bad. I pulled my calf muscle, I suspect. I don't want my back pain to worsen, my knee joint to snap from shock absorption, my calf muscle to aggravate further from a suspected pull or my shin to snap from pressure.

OK I realize I've been living on a short fuse for a couple of days. If someone suddenly jumps out of a door in front of me or pretends to strangle me for fun, or throws a derogatory comment at me, I have this burning temptation to grab his arm at the elbow, haul it behind my neck, lock both his legs, snap his arm in two, and throw him over my shoulder. Although I haven't actually hurt anyone, it's come pretty close to that with a couple of people, with all the limbs in the right place for execution of all the aforementioned steps if my temper really blows.

I really need to work on controlling my violent impulse...

Kk went for cell yesterday night, with the sudden realization that I only did one exercise out of the six in the book. Oh well, another $5 down the drain. 'What don't you do that you'd like to have the opportunity to do?' Ahh I love this question because I really want to go to a disco again and I have to wait like years before I'm of age. 18 years old, I think, which means 3 years more.

I also need to reconsider my interest areas for possible jobs in the future because Matthew told me yesterday during supper (after cell) that research in psychology would require a doctorate which would take...10 years? Which means I would be thirty-something by then. Forgot the rest of the details, but just that getting there is bloody difficult. And psychiatry is depressing. I mean, you go to work everyday just to hear about other peoples' problems. Throughout your normal 10 hour workday there's not anything to cheer you up once. Eventually you'll need to see another psychiatrist too. It's a conspiracy.

And Yao Hui has this ridiculous but cool plan for council that I shan't tell anyone. Besides that it's l33t haX, I shalt not reveal the idea. He's agreed for me to be AOS if the plan really comes to fruition, though.

Piano at Leisure

2006-02-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

Ok, school got a tad more interesting recently.

LeeKS turned into a monster in the class yesterday. 3 people handed up homework late and Daryl got caught for copying homework. It was unbelievable; LeeKS's scolding can even put teachers like Esther Cheong to shame. And one strange thing is he had me believing - remember when some teacher told you you'd regret it in 5 years time, you sniggered inwardly? He actually had me believing what he said.

And presidential elections. Presidential candidates: Sua Yu and Yuan Chang. Sua Yu's campaign slogan is: Starting a Vibrant Environment for Hwa Chong. Whereas Yuan Chang's one was: See it Big, Keep it Simple. Well, Sua Yu's powerpoint far outdid Yuan Chang's but the latter's verbal presentation was much more impactful than the former's. The adverts were nice, though. And getting down to the crux of the issue...

During the Q&A session, I got the ball rolling by blasting Sua Yu with the classic but terrifying question: What makes you so different. I said that Gregory and Jack put up almost the same theme (student-directed council), so I shot him with the question: What makes your campaign so different from theirs. Sue me, but I myself am quite cynical about Sua Yu's campaign as I've undergone two years of promises under Gregory and Jack. But I still don't know who to vote for.

Okkk life updates. I'm continuing to play the piano at my leisure and I'll probably try new songs after this current spate of tests and homework. Probably in a couple of days. I'm able to play one grade 5 song quite fluently now with little error, I'll probably work on other grade 5 songs over the weekend.

I think I shan't be getting a teacher, but just trying out myself. I recently came to believe that arts like piano shouldn't be taught by a teacher once you've sorted out the bare basics and should be more of exploration. Anyway, I never liked working under a teacher for something art-sy. I hate being put under pressure to perform on something that should be done at leisure; I don't want a teacher nagging at me continuously to do better when all I want to do is to relax whenever everything feel's too cocked up.

Kk time to mug geography and chinese.

Random Quiz

2006-02-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

I just picked up the piano again after 3 years of not having touched it. I failed my Grade 5 by the way, so I jumped back to my highest level (meaning Grade 4) and I was surprised to find I could play quite fluently except for those ridiculousy difficult parts. 'Ridiculousy difficult' is a subjective term, so those grade 8-ters, please don't come slaughtering me. Music really is food for the soul.

Sighh nothing important in school today, we had all 7 subjects crammed into today. The only thing I happened to get was a poorer reputation with LimTH our chemistry teacher because he called me up to write a chemical equation on the board and it just so happens that I forgot everything from last year. Sue me.

And since there's nothing to do now (I vowed not to revise Chi/Geog til 8.30), here's a quiz I got from sifting through Tag's archives. Enjoy.

10 things not everyone knows about me
I've disco-ed before.
I was once a crybaby (serious!).
I reminisce quite a lot about the past.
I tend to let my imagination attempt to bend reality.
I used to abhor girls.
I have a tendency to switch between serious and silly.
I have vaguely considered psychology and politics as careers.
I still cry at times.
I can be cruel to the point of violence.
I'm completely the opposite of my primary school self.

9 ways to win my heart
Look good.
Be yourself, dont act.
And the rest, you show me, k? k.

8 things i wear or carry everyday
Notebook.
Wallet.
Spectacles.
Socks.
Sanity.
Imagination.
Optimism.
My fists.

7 things that annoy me
Any form of NL-ism.
Cynical attitudes.
Arrogant people.
Uncompromising people.
Deadlines.
Incredibly daft politicians.
Indifference to those around you.

6 places i've visited
Tokyo disneysea.
Bali bomb blast site.
Patong beach, Thailand where the tsunami hit.
A farm in China.
Does RGS/NYGH count? that would make 6...

5 things i wanna do before i die
To be a great dribbler.
To be able to sing well.
Have more friends.
Change society for the better.
Be a better person.

4 things i'm afraid of
Being forgotten by my friends.
A life of neverending boredom.
Bureaucracy in both people and principle.
Vicious depression cycles.

3 things i do everyday
Chat online.
Listen to music.
Talk to friends.

2 things i'm trying not to do right now
Letting my life be pulled too far off track by girls.
Making this post neither too boring nor too provocative.

1 person i want to see right now
There are such things called human rights; therefore I shan't answer this question.

Food for Thought

2006-02-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

Since there's nothing I need to post today, I'll just post some food for thought.

Life is a series of gambles, calculated or otherwise.

40 minutes of recess is worth more education than 5 hours of class.

Everything's funny only when it happens to someone else.

Instinct is logic working at a subconscious level.

Just think of 20 people and write down their names as they come to your mind. Individually, think about your relationship with each of them, reflecting what made their name appear to mind.

A Mind of My Own

2006-02-04T11:45:00.000+08:00

First off I'd like to start with a useless link to a typing game where you can devote wasted time to: http://frenzy.morpheme.co.uk/frenzy/index.jsp?gameId=0. It's really pointless, just seeing how fast you can type the alphabet. Pointless, but still fun and worth about 5-30 minutes of your life.

THIS is my high score, which means every letter is typed out in 0.086538416 (cont) seconds. The winner's fingers are incredibly, ridiculously fast, completing the alphabet in 1.001 seconds. Still a long way to go. Possibly Adriel in a flicking frenzy against the keyboard, but even then, not by a mile.

Okkk edit I just got 2.203 but I'm lazy to upload pic =/ You can search "dooger" in the high scores, I'm no. 524...

Quite the average day. Speaking of average, averages are one of the worst things in the world. For example, every human has an average of a breast and a testicle. That was from a quote I got on averages somewhere. Anyway, it was really just another average day. ~~I'm sure I was quite weird because I had two testicles.~~

Mathematics test surprisingly easy but taking no chances, followed by PE where we ran roughly 3.3km. I pia-ed the whole way and during the last 500m my shin felt like it was going to snap but I finished it anyway. Then was followed by Physics and English and then Social Studies and Chinese. All boring, nothing spectacular. A lunch, and home. One point of the day was that I didn't manage to snatch any good conversation with my really, really good bunch of friends. I did with Jonathan and Adriel though, for a change.

Followed by a rush to get to National Skin Centre. Freezing is cool and the -196 degrees Celsius liquid nitrogen forms a mini-iceberg in only a couple of seconds, pure white and it looks...well, not exactly cool, but bemusing. The pain is only a bit of discomfort, but not the point of intolerability. I had to limp around after that...

Ok I went for church cell after that and today was much more spontaneous (and lamer -.-) than last week but in the end we all had our laughs so it was great. Sighhh Counterstrike is so devilish that it made me forget completely about completing the exercise in the book. Maybe I should go play another round now, hm...anyway, went out for supper with the bunch of them. Just an observation, I'm always the youngest present at these sort of things...

Then my father made a ridiculous accusation that I was getting too attached with church and its activities...what utter bloody rubbish. He doesn't seem to get the point that I'm completely able from detaching myself away from something if I really, really want to. I know how much time I'm spending and I can easily control that. My father never bothers to work out how my brain works, and I don't think he cares, as long as I do what he wants. Pfft. It's kind of ridiculous to think that someone doesn't have a mind of his own...I'm not a slave to anyone else's interests, I can think for myself perfectly.

Don't you hate it when your parents always say they know what's best for you?

Inflated Egos

2006-02-02T18:52:00.000+08:00

In impossible synchrony the duo danced to death;

Okkk I'm doing an Aran/Kai Ye because I'm putting a random statement and ending with a semicolon. I just thought up of it randomly while I was reading. Ok, so I did do some touch ups by changing the word togetherness to the word synchrony so it isn't the actual statement. Oh anyway semicolons where the sentences are incomplete are only nice for mysterious statements. Stop doing that DAJH. =]

Speaking of reading I was just reading The Andromeda Strain by Michael Crichton. So far it's been utterly predictable, there haven't been any violent twists or turns so far except for a small hiccup in the operation protocol which might lead to something later. I'll be expecting that too. Quite average so far, nothing that really hurls me off my seat...WHOOOAAAAA!

*crash*

Anyway, I've been watching American Idol 5 and what really puzzles me is how the contestants can't figure out how horrible they sing. I know for one that if I went for Singapore Idol, the spectacular best that I would achieve would be to embarrass myself, at most get one out of three nods from the judges if my vocal chords go out of the ordinary on that day. I wonder where they get such inflated egos from...

But hey, it's good for the competition and that's what provides American Idol an excellent viewership rate right from the start, doesn't it? And it keeps us well entertained too, albeit with a couple of horribly damaged ears. But that's the big price you gotta pay nowadays for entertainment. This is a conspiracy - everything's becoming more exorbitant by the second. Even this pixel.

Sighhh Tag's 'connexionz' makes me utterly jealous =/

That was just dropping a hint. Anyway, I'll do a couple of short paragraphs on my day. Quite sleepy, I almost fell asleep a couple of times in Chemistry lesson. Chinese composition was manageable and I managed to churn out two and a half pages worth of words in 1 hour and 10 minutes, quite the unexpected achievement. And I skipped training today - nothing much anyway, since with my back pain I can't do squats for squat. Do mind the pun.

And there's this science project I'm interested in working on, where the selected two would have to work with two girls from some neighbourhood school. Anyway, that's not the main point, the topic is can be summarized as the teenagers entertainment scene in the year 2050. It's a really interesting topic and I already have a couple of ideas in mind, especially one where all digital devices will take in commands in human language instead of computer commands and puddly fluddly computer language with all that messed up, stupid coding.

I'm going to split my foot open tomorrow at the National Skin Centre and the next day at the ice-skating rink at Jurong Entertainment Centre. Interesting, isn't it? My huge wound is still there, by the way, I'd probably go there with double gauze swabs couple with my knee length soccer socks or something like that. You do get the gist, don't cha?

Cool Stuff about America

2006-02-01T21:42:00.000+08:00

Sighhh it's such a letdown when we have to go to school again after 5 straight days of slacking, having conversation and having lots of fun. I really want to see my friends again but it also spells hours in school trying to maintain consciousness with an increasingly gargantuan effort. In conclusion, school = teh suck.

Today was quite an average day at school and I won't say much about it, although I can confirm that I've managed to make a good impression of myself to Mrs Nancy Tay. I've done that with Mr LeeKS and Mrs Rosalind Lee to a certain extent, but the remaining three teachers, I've been on fairly neutral terms throughout. Assembly was fine and PCME wasn't too bad, about servant leadership which obviously brings up self-development.

(Out of 19,) I put down my best 2 strengths as being a good leader and being able to communicate effectively with others. I suppose I was sort of born a leader because I was born tall, and tall people certainly do seem to be leaders. And then I was also nurtured...and for my two parts I want to improve, I noted down self-discipline (a huge problem at times; peripheral at others), and strangely I still want to improve my leadership skills further. Councillorship has really become an integral part of my life, I must say...

Oh, and an interesting statistic from America is that in the world of business, each extra inch of height earns you an average of an extra $789 per year. And I bet you didn't know that the height of an average American male (I'm assuming 18+) is only 5'6". That's like, only 165cm. Interesting, isn't it? I absolutely must work in America in the future...

After school was a nice day, but I'm contemplating the idea of abandoning the street soccer court indefinitely until...dunno, when I'm in the mood. Today I played in a team consisting of me, Benjamin, Wilson, Iype and Tor and I was almost anonymous throughout aside from a couple of tackles and a good pass.

Training was another thing because we were allowed to play field soccer, so it was the jumpers team versus the sprints team. I played well although I seem to have lost my ability to track down and neutralize Soon Hock and Mr Tok. But for plus sides I did well getting past Stanley today (shoulder drop + direction change + nutmeg), a few good through passes and a block from Jingwei's shot just a couple of feet from goal.

And tomorrow is a day I'm definitely NOT looking forward to. With tripledouble periods, weights and sprints after school further piled up with chinese tuition before going home and being obliged to nerd maths, I'm looking to tomorrow with apprehension...

Wonders of a Chatlog

2006-01-31T20:30:00.000+08:00

I shall expand some of my tag replies here:
@charissa: I'm extremely interested to know what the link is between Evelyn going to Jeremy Ang's house, then telling you that she went (I assume so) and why she would mention me when she doesn't know we know each other. Anyway, happy CNY.
@dajh: Thrill is a 'spur-of-the-moment' feeling, isn't it? It's still nice and enjoyable to count my profit thereafter, but my train of thought doesn't go "YES!" when I receive a red packet anymore. Happy CNY. And to both, kuai gao zhang da.

Ok I'm halfway through nerding maths for 1 hour and 20 minutes, which is definitely my record of studying the longest without tearing my ass away from my seat, not even once. Halfway through my major nerding spree I decided to get bored and here I am, being bored with my chest out proudly. Funny how you can become bored of studies at any one second and you can never get interested in the same couple of seconds.

Argh someone help me with yet another trivial dilemma. I'm thinking of volunteering myself as the panelist for the discussion, but then again I don't want to malu myself in front of a 500 strong crowd. Being panelist will reap me probably 1 english ACE point which is quite negligible anyway. Besides, I can participate as much from the floor as from the panel, so its not really exclusive being up there. Ahhh help me...

Tragic. School restarts tomorrow, and I don't want to go back and no one else does either. School's such a letdown. It's been the best CNY in relative terms this year and I don't want it to end. Aside from reaping a total of $402, I talked much more with more people compared to last year and so it's been much more meaningful, I guess.

I'm not sure if it's a good tradeoff, because my new maid is much more hardworking than the old one but is less willing to open up to a chat. Maybe it's because she's new here. If she doesn't open up more in the next few months, I guess that'll spell a more boring home life for the next couple of years, at least. On the other hand, she's hardworking and she can wash one cycle of clothes in 3 days so that means I can wear my favourite orange shirt twice a week instead of the original frequency of 1.

On today, the main thing I did was to go to Borders' Bookstore on the last day of the offer of buy 3 get books, get 1 free. I bought "The Seven Sins of Memory", a psychology book on how our memory is affected through seven sins, "Creepers", a mystery book of urban explorers who enter disused buildings illegally, "Recursion", a futuristic book on self-replicating enemies, and "The Andromeda Strain", the virus thingy book.

Ahhh reading chatlogs is such a nice way to defuse and to have a good laugh while none is available, and it sometimes makes me feel sentimental too. Conversations with Taggy littered with huge chunks of philosophy/psychology, with BX & Jevon with incredible amounts of crap which we (me included) would do well to turn it to studies, with Yanting with a good load of friendly insulting (don't ask me how that's possible...)...

Ok, time to nerd mathematics and geography again. Back to the books!

CNY 2006 - Day 2

2006-01-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

Scouts and paparazzi have signaled the second appearance of Mr. Orange today at 61 and 65 Binchang Rise.

Ok so anyway I was wearing my orange shirt and black bermudas today, exactly same outfit as the day I went to watch NYMD production. Anyway, I was counting this year's haul last night and it was incredibly good, hitting roughly 160.8% of my original expectations. I projected about $250 this year and I got $402. Props to Singapore's 9% economic growth last year. Or was it 7? Well, who cares? As long as we're doing good, I for one don't care about the exact figures...

Ahh what tragedy Federer beat Baghdatis =/

Ok so I woke up early today and I paid a visit to Jeremy's house that lasted much longer than it should've but who cares. Staying until 1.30, I met two of Jeremy's girl friends, the 4 of us played taitee, followed by me and Jeremy playing a bit of basketball (long way to go brudder) and playing about 10+- rounds of table soccer. I seriously suck at table soccer except for moments of brilliance. And ahhh Jeremy declined my invitation to have a go at real soccer for a change. Oh, do thank your father on my behalf for the wine...

Going back to my house, I found it thoroughly crowded already so I joined in for lunch for a +1 since there wouldn't be much of a difference anyway. Arghhh sucks to steamboats, you have to wait so long before you can actually bite at the food and then you have to wait another couple of minutes for your next bite since everyone's grabbing food. So after eating a meal composed mainly of rice and pig meat, I basically did the same thing as yesterday...

Eeee my cousin accused me of showboating my beautiful legs (don't choke on your meal now, friend. you don't want to die that young.) WHERE GOT LOR! I was merely settled down on the black railing, it's not my fault that I'm talented at being incredibly noticeable and conspicuous...

Tis the season to be bootlicking. If you haven't received a red packet yet and your (obviously old) relative asks you to guess his/her age, especially for females, purposely guess much lower and you can expect a 200% reward for your red packet. I only executed this method after I received my red packet already, so I absolutely must keep this in mind until next year to expand my profit further...

To think I didn't touch the telly or computer for a single second when there were still visitors around. And it was quite difficult fitting into the conversation. Either I joined in the older peoples conversation (20+), or I go and play with my grossly younger cousins, or talking with the same age people still having their lunch. For some reason (don't ask), I don't feel particularly comfortable talking around a dining table. Sue me. So anyway, settled down and has some nice conversation.

Besides that, today a carbon copy of yesterday, save the location. Once again, a happy Chinese New Year to all. Oh, and I won't be going out tomorrow...

CNY 2006 - Day 1

2006-01-29T22:10:00.000+08:00

XING NIAN KUAI LE!

And to most: KUAI GAO ZHANG DA! Ok, there aren't that many people who are taller than me or relatively tall for their age, so I can make this a general statement for anyone who visits over the next few days. With the exception of Jonathan Soh and Tan Yew Wei, there shouldn't be anyone else I have to exclude...that being said, CRY's sister and one of my relatives (forgot who, damn) have wished me that so far. I seriously think they need an operation up there. No offense.

Ok I think I've found yet another maturation point because I don't find any thrill in receiving an hongbao and trying to guess how much I'll get for this whole year. And that being said, I don't think that maturation point is exactly very far in my life. Still, to some it would be quite a milestone. Baby steps, folks, baby steps.

[SAT]
Ahaha so anyway yesterday night was reunion dinner and for once I was looking forward to seeing my relatives over collecting hongbaos (yes, I'm still quite the child at heart. you adults, shame on you.). Anyway, met two of my paternal side families. One of which has a hyperactive and extremely talkative 6 year old boy (quite rare nowadays) that has simply too much energy and you can chase him for 15 straight minutes for a good workout, AND he's still running.

The other is an OLDDDD family where my youngest cousin is 8 years older than me already. People age fast, don't we. And they're both about as tan as me. Anyway, the night was kinda neutral, I didn't find it as boring as previous years' but it was much better this year since I made conversation instead of plunging myself straight into a telly set or the internet and created/joined in the banter.

And Godzilla is actually quite an interesting movie to watch unlike King Kong. The mother of all the babies actually has some understandable, rational emotion unlike the bloody big and dumb monkey who likes a human for no reason. Oh well. What a durable taxi in the movie. I guess Toyota's finally beaten, eh? Takes a movie to beat a brand...

[SUN]
OK, went to church today for an interesting sermon before my family rushed off to our first stop, my aunt's house, arriving just in time for the first round of (brilliant) food which I only get to eat once per year so I shovelled quite a substantial amount of fatty meat down my thoroughly congested throat. I can afford to get fat during this time of year since I'll burn it all off with my 16 hours a week training anyway.

I drank a can of beer for the first time in my mother's presence (which means I've done it long ago) and walieuuu she was so paranoid she wouldn't let me go past two-thirds of the can which means about $1.50 wasted. I mean, every $1.50 you donate to a kid in Africa means about 3 meals (from my estimation). Pfft. No big deal, I finished another can later. And I'm still typing in completely coherent sentences. gdjigan plfbmvdvkpx oieqklam.

Again it was quite like yesterday although the TV was different. It was definitely cool watching the lion dancers slip up. There are supposed to be shock absorbent mats below, but for those who scrape their shins against the material of the things they jump about on...yeowch. Yup, so, so far this year it's been much more talk and much more horsing around than the usual stoning hours away.

Then moving on to my grandmother's house to camp and receive angbaos from people I see only once a year - what a great life. Anyway, played Monopoly in a mundane, everlasting fashion with my two cousins and my sister, and introduced first-level cousins to Compfused. They particularly liked the Real World vs the Internet video. Oh, and I drank another can of Tiger here and I haven't noticed any effect whatsoever except a bit of fatigue but I did wake up at 8:30 today...

Ok, so this year was more enjoyable since I have so far spent much less time in front of the computer and much more time talking to my cousins. I've nothing to say now. Again, happy CNY.

Primary School Patheticism

2006-01-27T19:01:00.000+08:00

Today wasn't that great after all, but it didn't go to the extent of horrible.

Yeah, we had CNY celebrations today. Chatted with Mrs Janey Sim for awhile at flag-raising and she asked me how the NY modern dance production was. Ehh Mrs Sim is also a nice teacher to chat with, I mean, it's quite difficult to imagine certain teachers having a friendly chat with you, innit?

The rest of the CNY celebrations were relatively boring; the (poor) lion dance was a virtual carbon copy of last year's. Talking cock is so much more fun than watching the performances. Talked cock with: Zhong Han and Wilfred (about taboo stuff); Jiachen, Yaohui and Zhenyang (about SLC + YF). Jiachen's band uniform was hax; wonder if the JC1 yf seniors could recognize him from afar.

Errr returning to ATS was the complete opposite of what I expected the whole school was bloody BLANK throughout. The only notable group of more than 3 people was from 6A where like 1/3 their class was there, the rest were stragglers in groups of 2s and 3s. It's like, on this CNY no one went back to their primary school.

And =O I recognized and remembered all the 6A girls (probably because of all of the kao-bei-ing) and was actually able to have friendly chat with them instead of the incessant kao-bei-ing in primary school. It was a good change, but strangely I really do miss the days. Not that they were particularly enjoyable but they do stir up their own memories, at least.

Arghhh it was so pathetic because only DAJH, Charissa (after some persuasion) and I from 6B revisited ATS today lor. ~~CHARISSA BIGMOUTH LOR~~ someone go tell everyone not to come back just because Ms Tan not here anymore. No hard feelings k? k. Ok so anyway could've been 4 if Zhong Han had been a man and had the guts to skip training but no.

Anyway we saw wanglaoshi and it was the same ol', same ol'. Sighhh didn't see either Renxiang or Wee Siong today. So basically chatted with a few of the 6A guys and girls, and with DAJH and Charissa before she left, then went back home and DAJH followed. Ehh also saw two of the Sec 1s from my orientation group. Er, we were supposed to 'hold the line' until 1PM where Zhong Han would supposedly arrive but there wasn't even anyone.

And, so we two waited for Zhong Han to arrive at three thirty omfg hax. So basically we played Madness Interactive, watched incredibly incredible videos/flash videos from Compfused and we went to eat at foodcourt at J8. Ahhh me and DAJH had lots of fun on MSN today with those I chatted with (chingto yaohui yanting).

Oh and Zhong Han brought his piano piece on some jaychou song which I forgot I think it's An Jing and I sight-read it and it was quite good I could half co-ordinate the left handed side while the right hand side was relatively easy. Arghh and I wasted so much in my life I spent so many hours on piano and guzheng before quitting them.

Not particularly pathetic, but not on par either...

Haxly Internet

2006-01-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

Ahaha guys just one more day and we celebrate the Year of the Doog!

[WED]
I've lost my respect for a certain person. I won't say who because if anything happens or by some stroke of negative luck it might invoke some irrevocable repercussions on me. I attempted to help but then I was put down by an answer I felt wasn't compelling enough but ahhh regret of all regrets I didn't have the courage to shoot back. Maybe it's my bias because I'm the one being put down...

Urghh I was so bloody pissed yesterday because my internet was being freaking haXXor by allowing me to use MSN Messenger to chat but not allowing me to surf the internet which means: no blogging, no e-mail checks, no forum surfing, no checking EMB and also no watching the ultra-addictive ultra-gore Madness Combat 4: Apotheosis.

Training was Teh Hax yesterday because
1)We had SUPER shun feng and we were all jumping 5-6m almost effortlessly. I think I hit 5.5m without landing on my ass throughout the whole training.
2)I finally reached below 7s in 50m sprint. I hit 13.5s in 100m before but 50m is simply too little for acceleration. Perhaps it's because I haven't done squats in 3 months...
3)~~JC gals.~~
4)My knee pain is now completely gone! But it was substituted by back pain. =/

[THUR]
Today was quite different from yesterday because everyone was unusually high, guess it's because tomorrow we'll be celebrating CNY. Mrs Tay was also in an extremely good mood and she was also laughing through a particularly unintellectual but hilarious lesson today where Daxian couldn't answer questions 90% of the time. Ehhh besides that there wasn't anything else that was interesting, for lessons at least. Just that everyone except 3Q had afternoon lessons just on the day I decided to go and play court.

Ahahaha court with BX was gay; there was no one with a soccer ball and we fooled around with a tennis ball doing incredibly dumb stuff like doing slow-mo tricks and going to the end off the goalkeeper's line without shooting and passing to each other. Then when Tor took the ball from the track room we played a bit, and I contributed to the first goal of the day with an assist to BX. Otherwise, blocked two screamers and played incredibly well defensively today, I was only beaten once by Samuel...

Training today was quite the motivational one because Guanyu was at afternoon lessons, Aran and Tor were at court until 5 (!@#$#%@#$@! wtfwtf) and I had back pain, which meant that I had to do high intensity sprinting in front of a whole troupe of NY girls (hi again cp!). I sprinted 1600m today bleagh and I had such a splitting headache halfway I had to stop and rest. Ehhh how come half the relay team is jumpers =/

Anyway, Nicholas commented/complained about the twisted complexity and the higher-level order of English of my blog but looking back there isn't really much bombastic vocabulary on my blog aside from the occasional fanciful sentence; if you really think mine is higher-order, you should take a visit to Tag's blog. I do recommend BX's blog for simple and easy-to-understand English.

I really should wean myself off Madness Combat...

Gripes about Elitism

2006-01-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

Ah, elitism within elitism, with the all the greats huddling together with one another to achieve maximum results, the rest are then relegated to the doleful drudges of subpar mediocrity. Horror of all horrors, I'm interested in doing Service Learning this year but doing with anyone in 3Q is the definite recipe for doom. I'm sourcing for other people (namely Dexter, Zhuo Yan and Eliseus) but if all fails, I'll be hitching a ride on DLeong's group.

And also for the Sabah OBS, I really wanted to go for that in Term 2, but there's not a single one from 3P or 3Q going in either Term 1 or Term 2 and I'm feeling rather down about that right now because I strongly feel that qualification shouldn't be academic-based (unless it's as horrible as, say, 6.00). To the best of my memory, leaders and world-beaters aren't neccessarily bred off brilliant examination results...

Enough on my own gripes on what I perceive as a multilayered blanket of political struggle, academic manipulation and disgustful elitism. Let's move on...

Ah, teachers can be really great too. Remember our cherished Mr. Goh Yan Yih? Yeah, I was hanging out at 3L on Monday during recess, looking as though I was helping CRY do the noticeboard along with other 2I-ians when he walked past. He purposely stopped by the door and, er, sang the song 'wo deng zhe ni hui lai' to me. And to BX when he saw him. He's treating me more like a friend day by day, eh?

And I'm starting to like him more by the day. I like all teachers that treat you like friends and you have actually have stuff to talk about besides the usual school-related topics. Which would include Mr Tan Heng Yang and of course, Png. It's always more comfortable working alongside or under someone who treats you as a friend rather than a working subordinate.

Sighhhh I'm not sure I want to return to ATS for CNY this year because Ms. Tan left ATS to work for some community stuff. But I really do want to meet up with the other guys again (aka Renxiang & Wee Siong). Then again, the most we'll do there is another couple of hours of soccer again, so I'm quite reluctant but...ah, the torturous pile-up of supposedly trivial dilemmas...

Another supposedly trivial dilemma is the SLC OT outing this coming Tuesday. I've been pondering whether to go or not, but I think I shan't go. I mean, since I'm technically AND officially out of the organizing team, I shouldn't gatecrash. So far over the past 2 weeks I've only been working as an observer and/or and affiliate, and that's only to the concept team. Besides, I don't want to spoil the particularly scandalous atmosphere by generating anomalous signatures in the group...

The more I dwell over my past the more I regret and become depressed because I realized I'm quite the perennial underachiever, forced or otherwise. I grossly underachieved my maximum potential in PSLE, in squash, and especially with Secondary 2 MSG, which in turn forced me out of my consortium into a gargantuan, aimless vortex without council. That sort of makes me an underachiever in council. Promising so much but delivering so little...

And argh, my internet isn't working well either.

Maid Sentimentalism

2006-01-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Eh, I'm feeling quite sentimental now because my maid who's been working at my home for 6 years left for the Phillipines just this morning. I dunno...I do remember the times I made her so frustrated because I refused to tidy my bed (I still don't!), when she kept borrowing money from me, when I refused to eat my vegetables (I do eat them now), but what I still don't remember the time when I was shorter than her.

Ahh and I gave her a hug before my father drove her to the airport. It's not usually like me to give hugs unless I feel really sad. I really miss her now...

Ok, let's move on to lighter stuff.

The IPST yesterday was quite easy, I must say. Mostly based on logic. I think I did it quite well and I did faster than almost everyone in my room (which also consisted of Yao Hui, Dexter and Adriel). Perhaps it's because the test is based on logic and I don't have to study any content beforehand. Oh, and I met Justin from 6A03 from ATS. That was cool. Anyway, after that I invited Tag, YH, BX, Luke and Tor to my house to do stuff and play 3v3 at the court-sized brick floor at the park near my house, but in the end no one came.

And I went for SLC's concept meeting at JAng's house just two houses down from mine.
He's the boy all the BPGH girls want; =)

Ahhh guess who's the nerd who researched and found out that current oil prices are 5.5x that of 1999, 7% of the world's energy output and/or consumption comes from renewable energy sources, coal will last us 225 years, 16 coal miners die a day on average, and optimal working time for wind turbines can hit 90% with the best geographical location and situation.

Random things:
- My favourite song is currently "The Remedy" by Jason Mraz
- Madness Combat 4: Apotheosis is a real aphrodisiac
- My mother is a real busybody
- SLC is a fertile breeding ground of BGR scandals
- You can relink me at your own pleasure (meaning in the next week, dammit.)

A Hat Full of Stars

2006-01-21T14:51:00.000+08:00

If I spend any more minutes of my life running around for the people call Chia Zhong Han, Wong Qi Han, Alfred Wan Chien Yang and Davin Wang Jea Yeu, I will kill them. But that's besides the point, I guess...

I went to watch A Hat Full of Stars, the Nanyang Modern Dance production. Being invited by the lead is quite the honor and the obligation, I feel. If ya only wanna read on that, search [NYMD].

[WED]
School's been passing quite fast and quite boringly, I guess...well, on Wednesday I got early dismissal for myself because there was some blood in my phlegm and mucus. So GohYY was right (I consulted him 10 minutes after the first time I expelled blood), a blood vessel broke, so it was okay. And Mrs Sim is really nice, I told her I was going for the Nanyang modern dance production and she let me go instead of caging me in PTG. She said "Well, I will not deprive you of your chance to socialise." I was just bemoaning my fate the day before until Qihan told me that he (+ Zhong Han + Alfred) got excused on the same basis, so it was fine.

[THUR]
Errrr Thursday was the first day I really had a considerable pile of homework on my hands. Two mathematics assignments, a whole stack of English notes on the environment to read (20-25 pages plus minus), 50 ChengYu to study, read, memorize where I gave up at around 30, preparing for Friday's RP where the topic was changed to "Singaporeans are followers, not leaders", completing a small part of Phyiscs and Chemistry worksheets, and that's about all. Oh and I stepped into NY without invitation from a higher authority. That = win, it isn't exactly a common occurence, I guess.

[FRI]
Friday was a busy day which involved me trying to rush to a hundred thousand other places worrying whether I'd be on time or not. Nothing interesting, except that negative 196 degrees Celsius of liquid nitrogen being sprayed on your foot isn't all that pleasant and comfortable, but bearable. Oh, and during PTG, Jerry was invited up to stage just to talk to the parents in the Auditorium, and everyone heard "Teh Doog Story", though he didn't mention names but my mom knew anyway. Much <3 to Jerry, thanks. Maybe I'll start using my story in compositions, eh? Anyway, it refers to me losing my councilorship, that time of my life, and according to what my mom said about the content, it's still continuing...

[NYMD]
Say 'ello to Mr. Orange. Yeah, so I went in my traditional striking, multicoloured outfit which consists of a mainly red and white sling bag, blue and black sports shoes with tinges of silver and yellow, dark blue or black bermudas depending on your choice and preference, and of course, the orange tee-shirt. Went to Coronation Plaza and ate at Prince's with Alf, Davin, ZH, QH, YH, Mark and Dexter. And I met Nicole (who could remember me visually) and Yanting (who of course remembers me) whilst at Coro, but I couldn't stay for a chat as I again, I had to rush ahead of the rest of the pack.

Ahhh I met Liu Qian right before the dance and her face was literally sparkling silverrish. May I call you Ms. Glitterface? Anyway, she gave me the tickets (for me, Alf, Davin, ZH and QH), and I wished her luck before she left. I thought performers generally aren't supposed to appear in public before a performance...and that's what I meant for running around for that gang. What a selfless person I am, eh?

OK, and anyway, on to the dance itself. To be honest, I felt it was, erm, largely brainless dancing, but still it was great to watch, Qihan said hot and provocative, while Zhong Han was getting Incredibly Hornaye, it seemed. For the most part it was really cool, although to me the hip-hop part was a bit of a letdown to me, because I like hip-hop. Anyway, that's besides the point, the rest of the dance was great and I still don't believe how the human body can do a split AND slide for the floor for half a metre. If only I was that flexible; I'd never pull a hamstring ever.

Digressing again. I only remembered to read the programme AFTER the show (don't ask me why), and so the dancing sort of made sense, but I still don't know how that would relate to "about a girl who broke up with her bf and is going to start a new life". Direct quotation from Liu Qian. And how it relates to A Hat Full of Stars being the title, although I would say it's a nice title. Anyway, great dancing, brilliant dancing, inspired dancing, *incrt random word* dancing...anyway, I'll stop the review here. Speaking of the dance, it's 3 hours to the next one. Good luck to Liu Qian and the other performers.

Anyway, I met Liu Qian afterwards and I gave her a rose before congratulating her on her performance and commenting that it was brilliant. Well, of course, I mean, I'm obliged to, right? I meant that anyway. And niao-ed her afterwards about her foot which was aching from tiptoeing and jumping and whatevernot and she hit me just because of that. DISCRIMINATORY VIOLENCE, I mean, part of the video montage was a footage against violence! Oh well, after that I left for supper with the other guys because there wasn't anyone I particularly wished to see (hello cp!).

Yeah, other than that there ain't much to say. Ciao.